Being Myself

I am doing this 

Because of Allah

I am try to change

To be a better muslim

I am being myself

Through the path of Allah

I am begging for His forgiveness

Please

I am trying

Please understand me

This thing cannot be in a second

I need time

I need space

This is not easy

I am doing this because of Allah

Not because I follow others

Not because I want you to like me

Not because I wanted to look good

In front of you 

That known as a human

I do not care if you want to judge me

Allah knew everything

Far more than you

What ever you think about me

Never change the way Allah look to me

Never affect the way His judge me

I am His slave

His the one that open my heart

I am doing this because my love to Him

Other than Him

This changes is for my 'wali'

I do not want 

To be the reason they got the punishment from Allah

The word may hurt me

But

It cannot harm me

For the path of truth

I will be strong

Just

To get your blessing.